Feeling sad and disappointed... that's how I felt at the moment... somehow I feel that there's some sort of rejection from ppl around me... esp those that I care about...

Only Allah knows how it's like to be me... and I have to go through this on my own... with patience... it's quite embarassing too but that's how I have to learn about myself. I guess there will be lots of rejection in ones life compared to acceptance for being someone special to someone or be a part of something important.

When you really need someone to talk to or just to accompany you, they weren't there for you. It just leave someone in tears and felt embarassed for being rejected an offer... perhaps some would feel sad and at the same time angry when ppl turn them down... the feeling of being unwanted and left out creates negativity in a person... he/she wouldn't dare to make the offer again and just wait if other would offer them... it's kinda sad..

Ya Allah, please give me strength to go through this... I'm just so scared of being rejected and neglected... I also want to be happy... please guide me to be a better person... Amiin Ya Rabbal Alamiin...