Feeling much better...

Lately I've been experiencing the most terrible days as I felt like my head was hit by something.. Well, it's just that so may things happened these few weeks and I hadn't got the chance to get myself relaxed..

Doctor's advice was to get myself some rest and she gave me an M.C. which at first I was reluctant.. but when I think back.. well after all that happened the other day, I guess she's right.. I was feeling so restless, couldn't stand or walk properly with numb fingers.. my bro had to drive me to the A&E for a checkup.. kesian my mom, she's the one who worries a lot and she accompanied me to see the doctor.. I only text one person who was the last person who text me before I got home the other day. Thanx for hearing out..

I really didn't expect this to happen again, well, after what happened during my A levels.. I'm just glad and alhamdulillah that it wasn't the heart thing.. So, the same pills were given like the ones I had when I was doing my A levels, yeah.. the three months appointments under the care of a specialist doctor.. but, now I'm getting better.. No worries.. Insya Allah..

So, for now onwards I had to take care of my meal times, and what food to eat and what not to eat.. Need to do more exercise just to relax my mind off the work stress.. and also drink a lot of water.. Should be ok.. Think positive and be optimist..

Health... the wealthy treasure..

Attended a seminar on Health Education this afternoon.. I just don't get it when people question about my health conditions.. well, should I lie about it? It's actually nothing to be proud of but I just have to be truthful to my body conditions and I'm not lying about anything.. Yes, I know that nobody wants to admit that they have this and that conditions that they are having.. but that doesn't mean that by denying them, things will be well. Anyway, I don't like to be a hypocrite about all these.. So, maybe that should help people to understand about the needs to know about certain kind of illness one has to bear and be more prepared to perhaps to prevent it from happening. Have I done a wrong thing by doing so? I guess NO..

Hey, nobody's perfect and I'm just a human being.. we are the creation of Allah and we have to be thankful with what we have. Alhamdulillah.. That's what I'm always reminding myself to think positive and be happy regardless of any conditions. Wallahua'lam.

All I know as what I've told my former students that "Health is very important and that is the key to our happiness. If we are healthy or think that we are healthy, then we will be happy. If we think that we are unhealthy, we will always be unhappy about life.".. Think about it.. :-)

Flowers for teachers....

Tomorrow will be a Teacher's Day Celebration for our school. I'm sure lots of presentations of songs, drama, video shows that will be produced by students with the help of their teachers.

Really looking forward for a good celebration after all these years.What makes me remember about Teacher's Day is that I can always give presents and cards and send greetings to all my teachers as they have been working hard to guide us in our studies and making us be what we are today.. Alhamdulillah and thank you so much to all my former teachers.

Hmm.... I'm not sure what our students now think of when it comes to Teacher's Day Celebration. When I was in Form 5 we had the First National Teacher's Day Celebration where we had drama and choir presentation from students. I was not involved in any of it as back then I was more of a "bookworm" type of student who only focus on studies and not much in extra curricular activities. Well, that was a long time ago.. but it was still fresh in my memory as I had taken snapshots of the events. :D

Now, being a teacher I understand that it is not easy to make students learn and understand what we want to convey to them.. It takes a lot of courage and commitment to be a good teacher... It is never easy.. but somehow after all the hard work.. what we expect from students is their good results.. hmm.... I wonder....

This year the YES Club has something to sell... bookmarks and also flowers for teachers... Wow!! I love roses.... :-)
I still remember... a few years ago I had this plan of giving flowers to all teachers.. and I did... I know that someday I will give teachers flowers.. and I did.. and I made it a surprise for all teachers.. nobody in school knows that those roses came from me.. I've printed a card for each flower to be given to each teacher.. I prepared three roses for those special teachers and only 1 white rose for most of my male colleagues. Perhaps they have already forgotten about it... I also prepared 1 for myself too.. hehe...

I guess till now nobody knows who sent them those flowers.. hehehe....

This morning when I had my late breakfast (hehehe) with my dear friend who is also my colleague, we talked about our teacher's day celebration when we were students and also who our former teachers. Those good old memories.. our former teachers (local teachers) are now in the higher positions in the administration, being Principals, Deputy Principals, and a few are now working in higher posts in the MoE. Hmm... so, thinking of what they've gone through and what myself and my friends are at the moment... we thought.. Wow! we are going to be like them.. but it seems that we are moving at a very fast pace nowadays.. My friend is already the Head of Department and I'm already being the SM.. just imagine... I've left SM Perdana Wazir as a student in 1992 taking up A levels in 1993 and then continued my Degree and graduated in 1998.. Offered as the SM Academic in 2004.. got the opportunity to continue my Masters in 2005.. feels like a dream.. After all those, I never realize that time flies so fast.. Both of us noticed that most of our former teachers have retired and the ones that are still working will also be retiring perhaps in 10 years time.. Then we thought of who we'll be in the future.. Well, come to think of that, I'm still not ready to take up that higher position as it requires one to be very responsible and very "ready" to be fulfilling the duties that one has to undertake. I'm still young and I know for sure that I wouldn't want to be given that post just yet.. I still have to learn and I have the willingness to further my studies in what I'm very fond of.. perhaps.. Insya Allah...

Happy Teachers' Day to all... Semoga semua sumbangan dan pengorbanan masa dan tenaga yang dicurahkan akan melahirkan generasi muda (tunas bangsa) yang intelek, berbudi bahasa, bersopan santun, berakhlak mulia dan beriman serta bertanggungjawab.

How lucky are we..?

...to be in a relationship? I've been asked so many times by close relatives, friends, former teachers and even my former students.. the critical question.. I really don't want to think about it for quite some time as I've some reasons for doing so..

It's been quite a while I haven't been involved in a special relationship and I'm know that I cannot have high hopes of getting into one just yet.. All I can say is that I'm just so unlucky in love.. lol.. I do believe in "jodoh" but I guess it hasn't come to me just yet.. maybe not so soon.. Wallahu a'lam..

Friends have been telling me not to be choosy.. Hey! I'm not saying that I'm choosy, but finding a partner for a lifetime requires one to be selective of the qualities and responsibilities of the other half. It's something quite difficult to predict and it can be so complicated.

What makes a relationship work? What qualities do one look for as everybody is unique with their own special qualities? Or perhaps ladies do not have to look for the qualities but it's the men who should look for the qualities? Huh... This is getting very tough.. It's not so easy.. as meeting with lots of Mr Wrong for several times doesn't mean that we have lots of imperfection...

Maybe it is just that Mr Right haven't met his Miss Right yet (or vice versa) and that he hasn't found her special qualities and has not been able to accept a few faults in her which he has to live with for the rest of his lives... I know that somehow I have to think about this but if someone found me, I do hope it's going to be a serious one (not much of a bf or gf thingy which I think is only for teenagers) and pray that it'll last forever.. Amiin...

So, I'm just trying to be myself whatever happens...

Interesting....

While I was having my training back in Melbourne, I had a chance to go to the National State Library. It was a very big library and it was very convenient to do all the work there. We also have our own library card where we can access the internet for free..

While I was at the top floor... I looked up and I saw this.... 

I remember that there was an exhibition in the library that really interest me... Here's some of the pictures I took using my N70 mobile phone camera..  and we asked the security guard if we can take pictures before we took some snapshots of some items on display. There was very little light but I managed to take some photos.

One of the items on display is the Quran..

Below is the Midget Library, a very tiny display of books. I'm just so concerned about the one particular book that was not placed on the shelf... I hope it is not what I think it is.. 

All the books were so minute that the size of each book was less than the size of my fingernail!!

The cuneiform tablet... reminded me of my History lesson while I was still a student.

This cuneiform tablet was very tiny too.. Hmmm... besides this tablet, what is in this picture...?

Hahahaha.....

The map of the world during Christopher Columbus....

An interesting piece of art work..

It's all about choice...

Just got back home from work.. and I didn't realize that it was already 6.00 p.m. when I punched out from work this evening.. huh... tak sedar jam berlalu dengan pantas.. :-(

I know that it's too much for me to handle but all the work is my responsibility and I have to complete them before the due date which is the day after tomorrow. As the other colleague of mine will be performing her Haj this week, it means I have to do most of her work plus the existing duties that I'm having at the moment.. Tough but I have to be positive about all this.

Which means, sorry to say, friends, I wouldn't have much time for you guys but I really do hope that you all can understand what I'm going through this month until next month. I have to deal with the higher authorities which involved the country's education system. I do remember that I've told you guys that if I look as if I mcm too serious or moody a bit (hope not), that means I have a lot to think about and tons of routine to settle.. 

So if you guys do encounter me in that situation, it doesn't mean that I'm mad at you guys or I don't want to talk to anyone or anything negative.. It's just that I had to limit my time with you all and also means that I have less talk with you all so that more work can be done. Jangan salah sangka kawan2.. If you guys know me very well and faham my duties, I hope you can accept that and let things settle down.. Jangan ke hati yer.. Maaf lah if ada tersalah kata.. sometimes kita tak sedar bila kita selalu jaga hati orang lain, siapa nak jaga hati kita... kita akan terluka... I have the tendency to care about people but little did I know that I've actually hurt myself even more.. hmm....so, if we are in this situation, people can take advantage of us.. kita selalu nak bahagiakan orang lain tapi diri kita sendiri yang tak mampu nak bahagia.. hmm... I do hope I've made a right choice... harap-harap I tak jumpa orang yang cuma nak ambil kesempatan, lepas tu tinggalkan kita... maybe 1 in 10 people yang macam tu.. really hope that I'll be positive about this.. hmm... susah.... enough about that....

hmm.. thinking....Hope I can finish the work soon... and get on with my life... I mean my life.. I also do need time for myself, so I hope with the upcoming vacation in the second week of December I can just wind up and rest... go to the cities that I wanted to go to and enjoy the scenery.. 

So, my choice was to get myself busy with work and forget other things that's bothering me for quite some time now... wouldn't want to mention here.. it's too personal.. 

Boring...?

Do you get bored.. with a person..? Yes.. Sometimes.. So do you blame that person for being a 'boring' person and leave him/her? 

Have you ever thought or considered his/her situation..? Have you ever asked him/her? So, how do you know that person bored you? Can you judge a person just by looking at how he/she dresses him/herself? Or by how he/she talks? Or by who he/she befriends? Could that be enough to tell whether he/she is a boring person..?

Is there such a person as 'boring' person? Huh.. what am i asking here... i have no idea..

No answer.. Can you guys give opinions on this..? 

life

These few days have been so stressful... with work... and also... life.. hmm... just causing me think twice not to let myself "drown without a life guard"..

With all the job opportunities that were given to me, well, yang telah diamanahkan, I'm sorry to say, it's a No... and for once I know that's a sensible decision.. somehow, there's always a brighter side.. jangan susahkan diri sendiri for people who have other agenda yang boleh melukakan hati diri sendiri.. I'm letting it go.. 

I listened to the radio while driving back to KB after the march past for the Sukan Guru-Guru early this morning... and ada lagu ni yang quite sad... for someone who's waiting "All of My Life".. just to be with somebody.. Forgive me.. coz I'm just in a mood to listen to slow songs..

All of My Life

Time...

I've been passing time watching trains go by..

All of my life..

Lying on the sand, watching seabirds fly..

Wishing there would be

Someone waiting home for me...

Something's telling me it might be you

It's telling me it might be you..

All of my life...

Looking back as lovers go walking past...

All of my life

Wondering how they met and what makes it last..

If I found the place

Would I recognize the face..?

Something's telling me it might be you

Yeah, it's telling me it might be you

So many quiet walks to take

So many dreams to wake

And we've so much love to make

I think we're gonna need some time

Maybe all we need is time...

And it's telling me it might be you

All of my life...

I've been saving love songs and lullabies

And there's so much more

No one's ever heard before..

Something's telling me it might be you

Yeah, it's telling me it must be you

And I'm feeling it'll just be you

All of my life...

hmmm.... Ladies especially single ladies out there.. lots of people who we actually don't know, though we already know them for years...but people changed.. even if people hate us, it doesn't mean that we are bad.. but it's just that we have our own choice and also our own pride.. biarlah apa anggapan orang kata kita sombong, peduli kan saja.. itu mulut orang.. atau keluarkan kata-kata kesat pada kita atau belakang kita.. dosa diaorang yang tanggung sendiri.. the important thing is that we do not fall prey for people who have the 'intention' of taking advantage of us..

sabar saja.. things happen for some reasons.. 

time for work....

Spending....

After receiving my payslip on Thursday, I got so excited that I bought myself a pair of new flip-flop slippers.. A cute one from Bata after I finished work at around 4.45 p.m.

Well, I did spend some to treat my colleagues at work with Pizzas, Lasagne, and lots more from Frattini's (a good friend ordered for all of us). I felt so happy that I didn't realise that I still have to pay for other bills and the likes.. Anyway, I know that I still need to be happy with the current salary statement regardless of all the upcoming bills that need to be settled. Hehe... No worries..

Friday morning I went for a massage at the usual place I went to in KB town which I've booked on Wednesday. It was a 9.00 a.m. appointment there and I went there right on the dot.. Felt really refreshed after the massaged... Alhamdulillah.. Got back home and I've to fetch my mom at around 12.00 noon at the restaurant. It was after the pay day, so, lots of people are having functions and so on and they have ordered catering services from the restaurant. My mom cooks at the restaurant, well, a family restaurant just around the corner of the Dst branch in KB. Alhamdulillah, business is well and mantained in order.

After around 2.00 p.m. I had to rush to Bandar coz I really needed to buy the ingredients for my so-called Cheese Cake.. Bought lots of them and I went to go shopping for other things.. indeed it was only window shopping coz I didn't actually buy anything.. I was asked to buy a new Oven for baking cakes but I was not interested in any of those displayed on the shelves.. So, I went down to Tutong to collect my Baju Kurong which I didn't take during raya.. and I've spent on that too.. I really need to save some for my trip at the end of the year.. Hopefully, I could save before I've overspend it.

It was already almost 6.00 p.m. that I arrived in Seria town, also to look for oven.. I saw a few friends there, maybe shopping.. I parked my car at the back of the shop building and entered a CD shop where I met a colleague who's trying to buy a new DVD of a new movie.. Well, I told him that I've seen Tropical Thunder while I was back in Melbourne, at the Hoyts Cinema with my fellow team members from the training sessions. It was a really funny movie and I told him that Tom Cruise was among the cast members in the movie but nobody knows it was Tom Cruise. I think he decides to buy the DVD.. :-) Hope you enjoyed watching the movie.. hehehe..

I didn't quite buy a lot in Seria as I had to get some more milk and butter, and I went to Soon Lee Mega Mart in KB. Then I got back home.. After the prayers then I started baking my cheese cakes.. 4 of them.. It took me from 9.00 p.m. to 11.00 p.m. to finish preparing the cheese cakes. I then read the Borneo Bulletin and I was really interested to read the article on the new UBD graduates.. It kinda reminds me of my graduation last year.. a wonderful thought... I wish I could again study.. further..

This morning, I woke up as usual but I wasn't in a hurry to get done.. That's why it took me quite a while to get ready and drive to school. I thought I had time to pack the cheese cakes but I was wrong.. So, I had to ask permission from the acting principal to let me go and get the cakes at around 8.40 am. It was hard work for me to transfer the cakes to the cake boxes. My mum said that I should've done it earlier while it was still a bit frozen and now it was already soft.. so, it was quite delicate and may distort the shape a bit.. Sorry dear friends who have booked for the cakes.. I do hope that it tastes better than it's sorry shape.. Forgive me...

I took the cakes to school at around 9.20 a.m. just in time before they read the Doa selamat. Lots of food, local and international, just name it and it is there right in front of our eyes.. heheh.. well not all of them of course.. Maybe i'm just a bit exageratting here.. Sorry..

Of course I'm really full after the meal, so I'm going home a bit later for my Solat zuhur.. Home is just a few minutes from school, and I had to come back in the afternoon for work.. I had to work all afternoons unlike other teachers.. that's why I didn't have much time to rest in the afternoons, hmm.. being in the administration it gives me exposure to official duties other than teaching..

Anyway I had to do much better now as with a better pay, so, I think I should do much more "setimpal" with the pay that I get.. However I'm still waiting if we do get our allowances.. but now it is Alhamdulillah..