It didn't take me quite long to realise the mistake that i've done.. A dear friend of mine consoled me, giving me advice that I should be happy as it is not worth to wait for somebody who hates me. I remember at once a Motivation expert once said "Kalau orang baling tahi kat kita, kita jangan baling tahi. Sebaliknya, kita baling bunga kat orang tersebut." His words are still clearly audible to my listening tools close to my brain. What he said was true. To some extent, I shouldn't get mad or feel bad as that was only his emotions which he doesn't want me to take care of. It is not what he thinks I might feel, which is rejection. I never felt that as I don't have that kind of special bond with him. It is just the friendship that he doesn't want to continue with me.. Poor thing.. I feel sorry for someone who wants to break the 'silaturrahim'. Hope he's having a happy time now.
What ever his decisions are, and that he's happy with it, then, why should I be sad.. I should be happy as I've made him happy now. Right? Haha..
I thanked HIM for bringing me this new feeling.. A feeling of self and loving, very comforting that makes me much stronger. Alhamdulillah..
Today, I went out a bit later in the evening on my own to a beauty salon, asked the beautician for consultation on a new skin care product.. then I went to a hair salon, just to get a new hairdo. Guess who I saw there.. somebody.. haha.. I know he's there coz his friend brought him to meet his partner.. alamak nampak tia rambut ku... well, what to do..
It was quite funny too as these two kids (1 boy and 1 girl), who went with their mother (most probably from Saudi Arabia), laughed at my hair that was being shampooed by the hair stylist. I guess they've never seen bubbles.. poor things.. haha hehe..
After the cut, my head feels lighter and free.. Happy.. ;-)