"It's your fault... You are to be blamed... It's all because of you!!!"
"You make the same mistakes over and over again!!"
"You never learn from your mistakes!!!"

Have you ever been in this situation? I mean for most of the time?

It felt bad and feeling worthless, useless and very, very bad... A big boulder hitting on one person...

When all fingers are pointing at you, it is obvious that one particular person is being punished. It seems wrong to express your emotions to others when being in this situation. One really wants to runaway as far as one can run and let everybody win by getting oneself guilty and punished for whatever reasons that maybe...

Yes, that one person knows the story very well, and that one person hides it well not to even let others close to that one person to know what actually happened... That one person has no one to turn to... but weep and cry by oneself without letting others share the pain... and the One and Only Allah Knows what's bothering oneself... praying that all the things that happened will eventually settle down and everybody's happy... sacrificing one's happiness for the sake of others. Have the others noticed how one has made sacrifices, to one's family, to one's brothers and sisters, to one's best friends, to one's bosses at work?

All that one needs is love and care from those that one loves and cares. Going to the trouble of getting one's sister's children to be able to get diapers, milk for the infants, pay for the maid, pay for the car fuel, the house and so on... For the ones that he/she loves, one sacrificed everything and not a single cent was returned, but one knows for sure that one's sister loves and cares for one's well being... Helping one's brother to pay for the car maintenance, loans and so on... It is the sacrifice that was being made for care and love of siblings..

However, what one gets from friends are different from what family loves and cares... instead, all one get is being blamed and asked to change most of the time.... It sure turned one to be more depressed as all looked into the bad things, ignoring the good things in one person. As one may say, people will not remember all the good things that one did, but will never forget one biggest bad mistake that one did...

One has to be patient....