A happy event..

I just don’t know how to write about the event in this post but I only know how I felt and learn something from it. Maybe it doesn’t sound too good for me to post it here as I am going to include comments from people about myself in my workplace.. but I always take their comments as positive and very motivating..

Note: It may sound a little bit odd for me to write on this but it is up to the reader to perhaps read or leave. The decision is yours.. =)

I am really touched by the thoughts of my colleagues on Sunday evening when I attended the away day.. Yep, I truly admire all the potential that everybody have but sadly I couldn’t give one to everybody that I could think of.. Hence, I had to make a wise decision so as not to make a negative impact.. hopefully hehe..
I never thought that I could leave an impact to some people, well, I know usually I get negative remarks from people but that makes me a stronger person.. when one person made a mistake, that doesn’t mean the person is a bad person and will never correct their mistakes.. Only pessimistic people think that way.. Being positive is the strong and powerful tool that has helped me in many ways. Whatever I do, I always remind myself to keep positive and whenever things doesn’t go well, it makes me think about ‘rezeki’ and things happened for some reasons which only Allah knows.. Perhaps Allah wants us to do much better and that we have not put in a lot of effort and sincerity into making things work… hmm.. lots of reasons which we don’t know. So, it is a learning process which should never stop.

Based on the notes that have been passed to everybody, I received six types of character and potentials which I never know that I have them.. ☺

The most (seven votes) that I got was being a very professional, talented with high potential.. saying that I have the capacity to go very far.. Insyallah… Doa-doakan saya.. Terima kasih kerana memberi peringatan itu dan saya sangat sayang kamu semua..

I do hope that I can work to that standard that the notes have asked me to be.. One note given by my boss (my former teacher) was that “You are a teacher I truly admired.. You work with sincerity, dedication and high sense of commitment”.. I just can’t believe that I have made that impact on my former teacher. Big thank you..

The other four (one piece) notes were ‘A Mentor & Coach I truly value’, ‘I can come to you when I am down or slightly under the weather’, ‘You can be my boss’ and ‘You are simply a pleasant person’… Thanx.. hehe…

I will keep these notes in a safest place.. and will read them from time to time.. to keep me reminded and motivated..

Love ya…

Leez

Counting the days..... again for.... times...

Hmm.. I've been counting the days.. after recovering from depression that I've had since 2004. All these while it's been so difficult for me to manage my state of health. Now I believe that to be happy, we need to take care of ourselves before others and I always put others first, which is actually my weakness. Letting go of the one person that I love was the most terrible thing that I did. I've never expected that I would suffer a very great loss in my life. Maybe it was not meant to be... I gave up on him just because he was seeing somebody else.. I thought maybe he wasn't happy to be with me that made him do such a thing.. and that I wasn't spending much time with him. Sad.. Yeah.. the relationship wasn't meant to be.. :( All these things make me think about what I've been through in life.. I'm still finding life so complicated when we have to deal with relationships and breakups.. So, i'm still counting the days when I will find the one special guy.. Insyallah.. :)

I met with several of my old friends, classmates and even former students asking me the one particular question, i.e. marriage. Well, most of my former students are happily engaged, a few are already married with several kids now, and almost all of them are attached with someone special. I can count only a handful of my friends who are not married and not yet attached to somebody. Everybody would say that the single ladies are all choosy or ignorant, or just don't bother to get into a relationship. Wrong answer!!! We are only human and we need someone to love and take care of us. We also have feelings and it's kinda sad if people mistakenly thought that we are those who never smile at other people or not friendly with others. They never know that deep down inside every single lady is a kind heart, a caring soul who would never give up trying to get people to understand their nature. It is as if watching a movie where only the popular girls would be asked out on a date, while those unpopular ones who only read books and very shy would not be asked (or perhaps guys would not want to date them). So, do you think that these unpopular girls are choosy? or.... let me see... who's the one being choosy? Good question, right?

Like most of the time when friends come over to comfort you after you have settled down or you're done with the breakup issue, they raised the issue that you are the one having the problem and not the guy or vice versa. Well, does that mean if the guys who broke up with you got married after dumping you, the fault comes from you.. Poor thing!! It is sad when people make judgements about other people. But does those people who judges, knows what's going on and what actually happened? It's not easy to make or please people. They only thought that if a guy dumps a girl, then when either one of them marries another person, the other single person who stays unattached with anyone, is the one who's at fault. Of course, either one of them is happy or perhaps both of them are happy. But people usually look at the one who stays single as being choosy. Ah... what am I writing here...???

I guess I'm just too stressed out and I'm still counting the days when I finally get to marry the one who loves me for the rest of my life... :)

Interesting... really enjoyed...

Interesting.... Today I'm a bit happier than I was yesterday. Well, as usual I'm teaching in the morning and during break I received a phone call. I thought it was from my ubd supervisor but to my surprise it was from the Human Resource Development, MoE.

I have no idea what they wanted but they asked me to attend some sort of interview at 2.30 p.m. at the MoE, Berakas. I asked what it was about, but they said nothing, just want to ask you about something and I was totally blank.. Should I bring anything? They said I do not need to bring anything, just be there on time. If I cannot make it on that day, they asked me to give them a call anytime.. Wow!! What's so important about this??? I just haven't any clue!!! Again clueless..

Not long after, I received a text message from my colleague who were in the Melbourne trip, saying that she too had to go there tomorrow. So, automatically I thought that this MUST be something to do with the NSSCME project that we were involved in last year. I told her not to worry, it should be something to do with our next presentation in a Primary school which is scheduled on Wednesday, next week. I asked if the others received that call, and they didn't... (that makes me think...)

So, I called my colleague and she thought it is either the project, or another project, or scholarship... but I haven't applied for that yet.. Haven't got the time to write the proposal and look for the right Uni, but I still have that in mind. hmm... again that left me thinking.. well, I'm a 'heavy' thinker.. yup, True!! and that makes me worry too much.. which is actually not good for the mind and heart. Hope it is just another project and not.. a position there... hahaha... see.. my mind is so actively thinking of something else right now..

I had to drive all the way from KB to meet my supervisor to discuss about the abstract for the conference. On the way, I stopped at Express, Tutong and there I met with my old friends from university. Wow, it's been a while I haven't seen them. Really missed them. Chat with them for half an hour while drinking my choc milk shake.. hehe..

Went to the Jame' Asr to perform my solat dzuhur and there I met with my niece (my cousin's daughter) and her friends who were my former student. They had completed their A levels in Institute Tahfiz AlQuran and still awaiting for being called to enter the university. They have grown up so fast and they looked more mature now and I felt so "small" compared to them.. Hmm... yeah, my niece scored two A levels which is Al-Quran and Mathematics.. that's really good.. I really envy her, coz she's very good in Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah.. I remember teaching the other student "Thinking Skills" which is a very good exposure to how to organise thinking and also managing thinking so that one can do well in their studies as well as in an organization.

Went back home after taking a parcel from my brother who is a member of the LSCB and to be sent to my other brother in KB who is also a big fan of that club. hehehe..

Look at the time.. it is already 12.46 a.m. and I've just finished preparing the relief for tomorrow. I wonder what the meeting at moe will be.. hmm... So, just wait and see..