Stars....

What I'm posting here is just something that I felt at the moment.. Well, if you don't feel like reading it.. then don't..

When I got back home after doing a little bit of shopping with my guy friends, I looked up at the night sky.. Beautiful.... The stars... Yes, I can see the stars..

Lovely.. Hmm... It reminds me of the movie 'Stardust'.. I guess that had an impact on me as it is a tale about love and relationship and sacrifices for the one we love. Well, that's what was in the movie.. I just don't know when I will find my 'Star'.

I know that when I look at the stars it will remind me about that someone...who seemed so far away.. yet so close...ahh... just forget about him.. I guess he's mind is somewhere else now.. perhaps thinking about that special someone....or the little people... hehe..

If only one can understand how much effort another person has put in to keep the relationship healthy and well.. then both parties will be able to appreciate and cherish the love that will grow day by day.. like a plant - that needs food and shelter, sunlight and water to stay alive.. and of course enough nutrients that can supplement the growth to be having shiny leaves and bear beautiful flowers when the time comes.. keeping it in a safe condition away from weed and other pests.. It's a two-way thing.. give and take.. when we water the plants and give enough sunlight, the plants will have more hope of living and wanted to stay alive and be happy with its habitat as well as its surroundings.. but if we don't and instead be 'lazy' and not keeping it well-maintained, then chances are.. it will feel that there's no hope of being happy anymore..

People say things as they want to say.. but they didn't know that what they have said may hurt someone else.. and you cannot take back what you've said.. it makes someone feel worthless as the conditions were put to the very first..

Hmmm.... just letting out what's really bothering me at the moment..

The truth... hurts.... the lies... worse!!

Two people, A and B had a conversation...
They were talking about relationships between a man and a woman..
B asked a critical question to A.. "Do you love her?"... referring to a lady C who was not around during the time of conversation..
A moment of silence...
Then, A replied..."Hmm... I know it sounds crazy.. but if she's not around, then I will.."
B asked again.. "What do you mean by that?"
A's response.. "Well, I mean if she's not here in the same place as I am at the moment and not working together.."
B smiled...

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How about lady C?
How would she feel if she found out about this?
Wouldn't those words be a heartbreaker for her...?
Will she be able to accept him, knowing the fact that he's put a certain 'condition' in order to be in a relationship with him?
Knowing the fact that she will only be accepted by him if she's not there... really.. I'm sure will break her heart..

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This is (I think) wasn't a rational thing... It may create problems when people are dealt with this kind of situation. I thought Love is Unconditional.. I remembered the beautiful lines from the movie Stardust, "Love is unconditional.. it is unpredictable.."

But how could one man say such words..?
All I read and my understanding about love is that, you will not look or judge the physical state of that person, as what's important is the heart.

If A says that he will love C if C is not around, then what happens if C is no longer there? I mean A will only keep his 'secretive' love towards C and will only reveal it after C left.
Will C return to him? What if C never comes back....? How will A feel?
Will he regret his decisions, as what he's told B?
What if C never knows about this and left and never to return..?

Hmmm....

love... or....

There are some things in life that you are not expecting as you thought that it would not be possible. Well, I'm going through a phase in which I beginning to feel that I am really confused as to whether what I am feeling is the whole truth or just something that I thought I would not want to go through. Huh... this is really confusing... sigh... how do I put this in proper words.

I'm confused whether it is love or loathe... I just don't know which one. A friend of mine said to me, "it is either love or hate ~ like Faizal Tahir's BenCinta".. Owh.. really, that makes me want to listen to that song more often.. and I kinda liked it.. a lot!! LoL..

So, what is actually going on... ? I just have no idea.. which makes me want to isolate myself from others so as not to make the others feel the vibes that I'm having at the moment or be hurt by those negative emotions that I'm bringing to them.. Ya Allah.. Tolonglah hamba mu ini.. Mohon ketenangan dan yang terbaik untuk hamba mu ini dan orang-orang di sekeliling.. Amiin..