Woke up early this morning...around 6 a.m. coz i need to gather myself for the shopping spree... well, buying things for the family day on saturday..

Around 8.10 a.m. I got out of the house and approached my car...suddenly I saw a similar car to mine, with a familiar featured accessories, passing by my house slowly...and I suddenly saw the driver looking towards me as he drove past my house... It's him... yes, I can see him in the car... my heart beats faster and I tried to calm down my nerves and got into my car... I didn't expect it but it did happened... I wasn't sure that he's going to look at me this morning...

I slowly drove my car to wisma this morning just to get some cash just to get some fuel for my car.. I mind was still thinking about him, wondering what he's doing and whereabout he's going... I didn't text him as I remembered that I told him to just text me when he's free... so, I'm just being honest and patient... I know I was also quite nervous if he's going the same direction as I am...

I got to wisma and took some cash and started driving when suddenly when I was about to drive out of that place, I saw him driving into wisma... I can clearly see him wearing a dark-coloured t-shirt, saw his face which I really miss..hmm... but I'm not sure whether he saw me.. I drove past wisma and I saw he parked his car in front of the place where I had parked my car earlier.. I had to keep on driving as I was already late for the appointment with my sis and my sis-in-law to buy the things for the event...

It was difficult to leave him without acknowledging him my presence...I know it felt like he wasn't expecting it and he didn't have the urge to text me or call me, eventhough he saw me there... It felt like he didn't even care... sob sob... but I had to be positive about it and not think much... I'm afraid of falling too deep... close friends told me to be patient and let things flow naturally... and just "ikut rentak"... it is kinda disappointing... dear friends, you guys never felt how I felt.. and it's really testing my Iman... Ya Allah... ujian yg sangat sukar untuk ku lalui... temukan kami dalam keadaan beriman... hanya engkau yang maha mengetahui isi hatiku dan apa yang tersirat di hatinya... berikan aku kekuatan dan berikanlah petunjukmu... hanya sabar yang menjadi sahabatku ketika ini... Insyallah...