Salam... Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.. Maaf zahir dan batin...

I've been hearing from people that raya this year isn't as joyful as the previous years... and I admit that it's true.. well, not only myself, but many others had that experience... what could be the reason for that? hmm.. makes me think... well, as for me, I had to be more careful in spending money before raya and after raya because both my cars are having their birthday on the same month, i.e. September...hehehe... I guess it will cost almost $900 (in total) for both cars. That is the reason why I shouldn't be spending like before.. sorry guys, open house would not be a priority this year.. just come to my house but let me know when you guys are coming so I can fix some delicacy.. :)

Though Raya this year coincides with my birthday, people thought it will be double celebration for me and those celebrating their birthday.. Anyway, I'm really thankful for all the Birthday wishes and doa from family members, friends and students. Love you all..

Didn't get any presents or birthday surprises, I just bought myself a DQ Chocolate Sundae... Just to cheer myself up... Felt sad a bit but it felt great after eating the ice cream.. :)

Yesterday I went to Bandar to meet with some friends... and I also went to visit my student's mum who is admitted in RIPAS after her surgery.. There I also meet this guy whose kind and sweet, we know each other three months ago... I'm really happy to meet him and spent almost two hours sitting next to each other and talked... It was really sweet as we talked, we smile and laugh together.. It felt comfortable and I enjoyed the quality time with him. I understand that we seldom see each other much, eventhough we work in the same district and our workplaces are not so far from each other, and so is our place of stay.. We do bump into each other a few times on the road, but being with him yesterday, it gave me a different perception about myself, himself and...us... only Allah knows best... he read the doa and prays for the speedy recovery of my student's mum.. hopefully she'll recover soon.. Amiin...

I know that I wasn't dreaming about him... he's REAL and that's really him... so calm and relaxed.. and he paid for the drinks that day.. Thank you dear.. :) so sweet of you.. after I arrived home, it felt as if I'm beginning to miss him.. but I'm still afraid of this feeling.. when I'm not very sure of what he thinks of me...
I'm just praying for the best... Insyallah...

Till then... I'll try to update more and regularly hehe..

Salam Aidilfitri to all... Love ya...

Salam Ramadhan... akan merinduimu...

Wah.... time flies so fast.. it almost to the end of Ramadhan... it feels sad that Ramadhan is coming to it's end.. hope to meet Ramadhan again next year and the years to come.. Insyallah..

Syawal is coming soon... and my Birthday too!!!

It's a mix of happy and no-so-happy mood this Raya and also for my Birthday... Lots of things have happened this year and I really learned a lot from the experience the good ones and lots of sad ones...

I met new people and make new friends, while I had to part with a few but I still cling on to the friendship though no more "Hello" or "Hi" or "Assalamualaikum" from them... A smile on the face was never shown when I met them several times... Well, I tried, but it didn't seemed to work.. So I just pray for their happiness.. though I know mine was torn apart..together with parting with $600+ for my naive-ness... I just do hope that some people do learn a lesson, as what I had experienced... It is really a heart-breaking experience being a single woman, who had a steady job, with pay of more than 4k and would do just anything to be friends with everybody.. hehehe...

I'm just hoping that I'll get what I needed, i.e. security from the people I love and those who care... not from those who never appreciate our honesty and took advantage of our position and our wealth!!! It is a true fact...and it is never known by many... but I know my close friends knew that I was fooled and it was a real pain!!! I regretted to have never listened to my close friends that my naive-ness had caused me to LEND $$$ to those irresponsible people... I guess they never find happiness without $$$... So I thought money can make them happy, so I lend them some amounts of money... Allah knows the truth....and Allah knows siapa yang berhutang.... I just hope they'll understand it.. I'm just praying that they will be more wealthy and can pay up the sum of money that I loaned to them... Amiin.. Mudahan jua ada rezeki untuk mereka di bulan Ramadhan yang penuh barakah ini... Hopefully they'll pay it... if they didn't then, it's like KACANG LUPAKAN KULIT saja.... semoga pintu hati mereka akan terbuka untuk melangsaikan hutang... or perhaps just let me know when they'll pay up, I'll be considerate... please just acknowledge me about why they couldn't pay... that's all...

All I know is that bila seseorang itu berhutang, grenti dia tidak akan dapat tidur nyenyak... sebab memikirkan hutang... unless orang itu tidak berhati perut dan sengaja melupakan hutang tersebut dengan alasan tidak cukup wang.. sedangkan mampu untuk membayar hutang... This is just so sad...

What I wish for my birthday?? Well, I never get this... I want Roses for my birthday!!! :) I just want to take care of it.. hehehe
Another thing is, I'm hoping that my salary scale will be changed soon.. hehehe.. mudahan murah rezeki..
Apalagi ah... hmm... I'm still praying for the Right Guy to come along and get married hehehe... Amiin... :)

I'll keep posting new things.. lama dah inda update my blog ni..

Orite till then...

Salam...

Salam... It has been a while that I post anything in here. Been busy so, i haven't got the time to write on some things that happened.
I was occupied with work matters.. I didn't get much time to spend with friends. Sorry dear friends.. I know u guys understand how my work is and I'm sure u all are having fun without me being there hehehe
It is the school holidays now, so it's time for relaxing the mind and body, physically, mentally and spiritually (rohani)..
Had a rough time since end of last year, with so many unexpected events which really tested my patience and 'Iman' which only Allah knows how i felt and went through... Lots of 'finger-pointing' and rage among people close to me...and all boils down to one person, i.e me.. It was a tough call and i knew that i had to part with several friends just because of some misunderstandings..
I never expected to be in this situation where someone close would tell other people about a little secret which should not be exposed. That is when i really trusted that person, coz that person has been so close with us, but then due to others' temptations to find out why things aren't the self, words spread out and there's nothing to hide.. And the worst things were that more exagerrations from the one little information making more assumptions and creating slanderous groups of people.. Masha Allah.. Astaghfirullah...
It didn't cross my mind that some people loved to break the ties or sillaturrahim among us Muslim brothers and sisters.. I'm just a normal human being and I'm not perfect and I make mistakes.. It's just sad to know that people who've been your moral
support has left you in despair while you are still continuing to give them support from afar, through do'a and tawakkal to Allah..
Just have to move on and get up after the fall and I'm really thankful fo Allah for showing me all the good and the bad ones... I knew it was the blessings from Allah who wanted me to be a better person and not mix with those who would pull me away from the good intentions.. Alhamdulillah... Insha Allah.. I will try to calm myself down and move on being who I'm supposed to be and overcome the obstacles that lie ahead of me with iman and patience.. :)