It wasn't really the best day to day for me as I had been told of several things...
Hmm... I guess it will be one of those unfavourable years again for me.. :(
When I think about all the work that I've done and whatever they really meant to me, it somehow doesn't meet my own objectives of being a teacher. Not that I'm not doing the profession, it is just that most of my time was spent on doing other duties besides teaching, i.e the work in the administration. Starting from relief work, to preparing timetable, preparing exam and test timetables.. preparing timetable for the UBD trainees, timetable for the Relief teachers, schedules of students, classrooms, library, PE, Science labs, checking the salaries of relief teachers and so on. The list goes on and on... and more coming soon.. when the time comes... sigh....
I really, really do hope that there will be somebody else to assist me in my duties as I know that I cannot do all the job at once. It feels like the work is coming on to me.... that is really scary!!!!
So, I cannot say that I can be happy or feel happy for what I am doing right now. But I always enjoy teaching as it is my profession and that is the only reason for me to take the course in UBD in the first place, i.e. BSc Education.. and I really love Mathematics. It never occurred to me that I'll be offered to do other duties other than teaching and with only 5 years teaching I was already being the senior mistress academic.. I thought that it was quite sudden and I felt that I wasn't ready to take up that position.. All I know is that 5 years experience was only very little knowledge being a teacher which I understand was 0 - 5 years teaching experience for beginning teachers, and only after 6 - 10 years experience for practicing teachers and then grows from there.. better experienced teachers. I was not even 25 years old when I was appointed to be the senior mistress academic and I know at that time I needed to further my studies.
So, I got the opportunity to further take up my Masters in education in UBD and I was very happy with that decision. But when I returned back after studying, I was given more and more duties which they say "berbaloi dengan gaji yang diperolehi"... Hmmm..... I thought.. maybe it is.. but does that include "berbaloi" with time to spend with family and friends and loved ones.. I guess not.. I lost most of those valuable time because I had to spend most of my time in the office till around 6 pm and that I got used to being a workaholic.. when do I get to be happy with my life, yeah I mean my own time.. well, the only answer is... taking a vacation.. but that does not work..
During vacations, I always (I mean never missed) receving calls and text messages asking me about the school work and especially exam results... I guess maybe they thought that a single lady like me do not have other things to do besides WORK... hahahahaha...
Oh No!! I'm so tired of being ignored of my wishes.. The work keeps coming back to me... Ya Allah... tolong lah hamba Mu ini...
Just a thought... and I guess I'm just too emo today.. well, lots of things in my mind..
Will write something else soon..