What hurts the most… was being so close…
Hmm…. Well, that song is really haunting.. yup, seems like it is taking me back to what happened several years ago… that time when I thought love was all beautiful and makes two people happy all the time.. haha.. but that wasn’t all sweet.
Sometimes when we meet people, we talk and try to get to know that person… and we thought we know that person well.. but there’s always something that we will not know about them.. their past.. yeah, it’s true that people will try to dig into somebody’s past without them knowing that they were being investigated. I guess these people are so nosey and just never learn their lesson of interfering other people’s business. What if that happens to themselves? I’m sure they would disapprove of what people would do to them, right? So, it is up to the individual to keep his/her past be their own history. What am I trying to write here… hmm…
Though there are friends who cared for us, there will be a few people within the circle who are very ‘concerned’ with what we are doing and who we are going out with. Yes, I mean in very great details.. LoL… and they always disagree and seemed to have the power to control our actions.. I just have no idea how they are able to do that.
Back to that song.. it’s been many times that people were hurt emotionally by love.. and I admit being in those situations when I thought I can build happiness with someone.. but through the many times.. I was always so close to let my parents know that I’ve met the right one.. well, of course each one of them asked permission to bring me out on several dates.. it is just that when the time comes when I asked what the status of the relationship.. they can’t decide and left.. It was all so sad and surprisingly.. after they left, they tied the knot with somebody else. Hmm… but they still wanted to keep the friendship.. which I doubted that they would.. none of them send raya cards or birthday greetings or just say hi anymore.. I can understand that of course.. no worries.. I’m happy for them..
It was not easy for me to handle those situations but I had to.. I had to be strong to be able to get up and forget everything.. people looked at me with those funny looks as if I’m guilty and I deserved all those that happened.. I’ve been hearing all sorts of nonsense which I thought as their ‘attack’ weapon, just to make me weak and give up.. that was what hurts me the most.. I almost gave up on my friends as I do not know who to trust during those times.. I guess now I understand and it is so hard to even believe that the best of friends can be the best enemies.. They know you too well that they can make you fall to the lowest trench..
Sometimes we hear something that we thought was true but it was just a rumour.. so, we cannot just accept what we hear from other people without knowing the real situation. And please don’t dig into somebody else’s past if you want to build a special kind of relationship with someone you love or care.. We don’t want to build the future with what was in the past.. what is important now is the present.. people change and they reflect on what their past… but they do not want to be in the past or be living the past.. they also want to be happy in the future with the present foundations and what they have now.